Cindy’s Blog

i dunno wat to say.. rather than complain, from the beginning of the day when i learn on how to learn things, make things better and understand the concept of life, i know that im not of those who are lucky one, those who are genius.,whatever i want should be achieved by my own strength and might. My sacrifice will be much more, my road be much tired and complex..but i know in the end i learn more on how to stand on my own feet, taste the bitter of the path, the rise and fall in the journey..im glad sometime that im nt genius who never learn the feeling of great achievement after the long battle. Some moments of exception that i will start to judge the Lord..Why im not those who have the easy way for success?Blessed with good brain and bright future?No, the answer i hear is whoever who taste the fruits will feel the sweetness of the fruit in the end of the day..So, get up my friend..we are not genius but we have our own spirit to fight for the best, to do the best, to rise up from the mistakes that we have mede before coz there will always be another chance to perform well.. the world wont end without success, but it will if human being doesn’s care about being success anymore..Do you love this world? I do want to stay close to my loved ones throughout my life till the next time when Jesus is coming to fetch us..its an amazing wait which i always feel hope whenever the heart start to shout out any unsatisfaction coz i know God is always there watching.

say gambate, or add oil..just a few words.deep down from heart,feel the warm and blessing..all these while, feel the words just come from own heart to encourage oneself not to fall down or be panic. Now just realise, not me who should say the words to myself everytime i do need encouragement,,but from ppl surround me, those who really do care or mean to care me..Bet its not hard to practice..the one of me that always been hidden, not transparent at all..impossible to be so. try to get rid of what i always blame..its funny how things get in the end, but still stick to the principle that as long i did enjoy the process of fighting, the spirit will continue to be with me no matter how far i have walk, regardless on how well or badly i have performed in this life..should it be no regret, save the best for the last..

i thought i knew it doesnt matter from the beginning.

The short journey took me half an hour. just becoz i dont know what to do, is listening to music not enough for a human to survive alone.. its like im losing my way, keep losing my way ..as whatever i thought at first is not a real, imaginary had been bluring my sight for these days.. its not short, nor its a long one, but if i made the wrong steps, then, sorry, i give up this road and start my journey from the starting point. It’s life, not what u expect is what u will get in the end..There is no way for ideal cycle, of 100% efficiency where there always will be the room for friction and loss due to surrounding.. human makes the same thing, ppl in your domain might be the next who push u down to the worse.. i guess its just time, the time to give out what i have taken or mistakenly before..owning something dats not mine in the first place is already a mistake, not able to admit the mistake or try to run away is even deserve a heavy punishment. It’s ridiculous but what a time waste to build a new you , but im just getting tired and need a break.. just coudn’t do it anymore.. out of mind, who will believe the “strong” me will feel this way,. too little , just too little what they know about me,,yes, not their fault, its mine..like im wearing a bullet proof jacket,,no human hearts goin to get in..for them, maybe im just another joker,,rather than what so - called friend ? nobody knows what i really like, they rather choose not to know who i am,,maybe im too different? try to hit the walls around me,, get rid of what i don’t really mean..it’s to hard, harder than the calculus..no exact solution for this, its blur..dead and gone..

the enD of JourNEy is nOwhEre..

When first decide to make Things clear and back to normal, somehow the voice within try to recall back the soul to know what actually stuck in the middle of the war..why should call it a stop when im still like enjoying under the pressure..

ione..how would you pronounce this word?

different comment and mindset will lead you to giv differnt interpretation on wat u say. Whenever try to focus on what to say, should i try to control the little me inside to keep quiet or let it be?..

My wish to be granted in the end of my journey on earth,,let us rejoice in the name of the Lord! Amen.