Cindy’s Blog

Since kindergarden, mathematics has been my favourite subject all along, much more than towards BM. Maybe that’s what people always relate Chinese with math, so eventhough Im not much exposed to chinese cultures and friends, math still be one of the best performing subject. Its not too over if i say that i never get any grade lower than A for this subject.

I better behave myself and be true to myself that math is not an easy field and yet, its ur luck also in the exam.. For my unforgivable mistake in doing the paper today, i guess the luck for me to get A in this test is going to leave me since. Maybe should not blame luck as the one who sat for the paper is me, and the one who forget the Heun’s method formula is no other than me! So, luck is just an excuse..I don’t feel any better, even though i try to be a good person as i thought at first what i give and sacrifice will get a return in the end. When people come to me for help, eventhough it’s a last minute revision, i don’t mind to do so as it’s a way for keep reminding me what have i gone through on my revision for the past month..It’s not blaming the wish of the Lord for doing this to me, maybe He want to teach me a lesson, let me fall for some time to tell me that He loves me. Or actually he let me decide to do it the wrong way so the next time I will remember to be CAREFUL..Is this real or just a comfort that i tell myself so I wont wet my pillow in the middle of the nite..?